How I got over my imposter syndrome
It might come back soon.
Make content around your life, not your life around the content
I saw this tweet a few months ago and I have been cautious around posting anything on the internet ever since. Every time I post something, I ask myself, “Am I posting this only to get a few likes, or do I genuinely love it?”
I have posted some stuff just for the likes, not gonna lie. But, whenever I did that I used to regret it so much. Basically, I don’t recommend it XD.
This week’s highlights
Almost completed my first task in my internship
Started working on a mini project for my college
Had crazy imposter syndrome
Let’s skip to the bad part…
The imposter syndrome
I never knew what this meant until like 10th grade, but after I got to know it, that’s when I realized that my problem had a name and apparently everyone goes through it someway or the other. I read a lot about productivity and I have read a lot about imposter syndrome.
I feel more confident about myself whenever I read about it and the confidence lasts only for a day maximum. Something would happen later and all my confidence would just die in a second. That “Something” could be triggered by a funny tweet, Instagram post, during a conversation with someone, or anything. You just feel like everything was pointed towards you somehow and you just want to give up.
A similar thing happened to me this week.
As you all know, I started this newsletter last week.
I saw this tweet on how to make money by writing and BAM! The imposter syndrome kicked in
It had some amazing insights about writing and making money but I also realized that I wasn’t doing most of it, which is fine because I started to “really” write just last week! But nope, my brain just went spiraling with questions, “Am I really doing this right?”, “Is this even right for me?”, “Will I ever get better at this?”, “Let’s drop this shit”
All the “I am going to enjoy writing” shit had just vanished within moments and I knew I was en route to legit giving up on this.
I have given up on a lot of things before but with this one, I was witnessing how my brain was making me take stupid decisions. The procrastination, OH MY GOD!
Having control over this was a real task and I just wanted to beat my thoughts and win this fight.
Comparing ourselves with someone better will never work for us and we will never let that habit go. I can’t just say “Fuck ‘em”, it has never worked for me and I don’t think it will anytime soon. Trying to fight those stupid thoughts in your head, that’s the initial challenge, catch your brain when it’s making stupid decisions, fight it.
This is how I am going to beat my thoughts, by publishing this post. This is it.
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